note to an angel

it scares me to know that i might lose you

it's so terrified to know that it is you

i know i wanted it too

but what i care more about is you

so wake up dear angel

wipe this tears away for me

cast this fear aside for me

please,wake up for me

ps: i love you.

the final say

friendship ends with nothing

memories came floating

heart and mind still hurting

even the ice caps are melting

you threw accusation based on assumption

tearing the flesh of my being into pieces

storming through your words like a mad person

couldn't care less about the past or the future

it's only where you begin and not the ending

for your sake you did what you think is best

not thinking of what damage they could do

it's just for you,it's just for you

letting go is the only option now

so everything can be freed

so we can build our seprate future

so we can breathe out the air

so we can be out of anger

take care,oh dear friend

sorry that things got out of hand

it is wise to put this an end.

dear wheel of fortune,where will you take me?

people make decisions in their life

wrong turn and you'll end up in misery

the right choice leads you to victory

but everything is not that easy

mistakes do not mean you flipped the wrong card

you just went off track for a while

you have not walk off a mile

all you need to do is move forward

do not let them draw you backward

you have to paint your own path

so you dont live in regrets of your past

do what you want to do while life still last

make your mistakes and then mend them fast

dont be afraid and fight your aghast

life is what god has granted for you

so live it and dismiss your sorrow

learn from everything and grow

when the time comes,you wont ask questions anymore

you'll know what you want for life and more.

Demented

i feel as if i've given up hope on life

so take my soul,take it with your knife

vowed to me like i'm your wife

the shadowy nights

the street lights

i can't put up more fights

all of it is just like an explosion

consumption with no quotation

feeding on me like temptation

feeding on the walls that i've built

throwing me a glance of guilt

life,dear one

take what you want

take me if you want

for i wont be living no more.

living hell

life is a piece of mess

but i know i've done the best

i've pass through all the tests

all i need now is a little bit of rest

cuz i'm tired to saying yes

i'm tired of fillling up the gas

still i know i'm better than the rest

people killing each other

his father,your mother and their daughter

gotta be strong,gotta be a fighter

that's what it takes to go higher

i aint joking,i aint giving out flyer

man,you cant drive with a flat tyre

things happen for a reason

things change with the season

everybody learn their lesson

you dont want to end up in the prison

you dont want to end up encrimson

you know you want to be a better person

sometimes we make stupid decisions

we aint got time nor precisions

we stopped at the junction near the stations

still we didnt get any inspirations

divisons,substractions,multiplications

fuck,i need some ventilations

doctor,give me some respirations

ought to know this aint simple

hands on the knife,hands on your scalpel

give it two,better tripple

dont fall down,dont you grumple

take a stand,hold your principle

do your thing,fuck all the people.

-22/5/2010-

7.24pm

in their shoes

wish you have never left

so many things i have to say left

to see you go in your sleep with the angels

wet my eyes,bring me down to my knees

i miss you so much that i sleep with your tees

oh god,give me strength please

it's not fair for you to go without saying goodbye

it's not fair for you to go solo and fly

every night i dream of you and i cry

i'm so hopeless,i dont know what to try

daddy,i wish you can come back

wish i could do a little playback

i'm still trying to accept the fact

that you're gone together with your pack

they are all here but i dont give a fuck

all i need now is a little bit of luck

woke up today without you by my side

someone whisper that you died

i couldnt stand it so i took a ride

searching,regaining my pride

life is changing now like the tide

please daddy,give me a guide

forever you'll always be mine

you get better with time like wine

daddy,give me a sign

that you're happy and in the line

to heaven and you shall be fine.

-20/5/2010-

5.57pm

anonymous

daddy i'm sorry you have to leave so soon

you didnt even get to see me fly to the moon

when you're gone no story is left

cuz everybody is working on their left

i dream of you every night and day

cuz i love you so much untill today

and now you're not here for my birthday

to even wish me a happy day

i'm trying to get my life right

i'm trying to find the light

i pray to god please make it light

cuz i dont know till when i can put up a fight

everybody said i will not make it

everybody said i will fail it

but look at me now,i'm in the flow

ridin' so high now when i used to ride so low

people look at me and what they can say is wow

i aint quiting this game,it's not about the fame

i'll keep the fire burning and the flame

to proove to all the niggas i aint lame

i'm not afraid to walk the storm and take my stand

i can fight you in any form and take over the land

i'm not afraid,look at me,i'm raising up my hand

i've been through shit holes,i've been to the poles

standing here now i've reach my goals

all you people can say what you wish

i dont give a fuck cuz i'm fucking rich

all i care is my dad smiling from heaven up

looking at me going the ladder up

and i promise you one thing,i wont give up.

-19/5/2010-

6.09pm