note to an angel

it scares me to know that i might lose you

it's so terrified to know that it is you

i know i wanted it too

but what i care more about is you

so wake up dear angel

wipe this tears away for me

cast this fear aside for me

please,wake up for me

ps: i love you.

the final say

friendship ends with nothing

memories came floating

heart and mind still hurting

even the ice caps are melting

you threw accusation based on assumption

tearing the flesh of my being into pieces

storming through your words like a mad person

couldn't care less about the past or the future

it's only where you begin and not the ending

for your sake you did what you think is best

not thinking of what damage they could do

it's just for you,it's just for you

letting go is the only option now

so everything can be freed

so we can build our seprate future

so we can breathe out the air

so we can be out of anger

take care,oh dear friend

sorry that things got out of hand

it is wise to put this an end.

dear wheel of fortune,where will you take me?

people make decisions in their life

wrong turn and you'll end up in misery

the right choice leads you to victory

but everything is not that easy

mistakes do not mean you flipped the wrong card

you just went off track for a while

you have not walk off a mile

all you need to do is move forward

do not let them draw you backward

you have to paint your own path

so you dont live in regrets of your past

do what you want to do while life still last

make your mistakes and then mend them fast

dont be afraid and fight your aghast

life is what god has granted for you

so live it and dismiss your sorrow

learn from everything and grow

when the time comes,you wont ask questions anymore

you'll know what you want for life and more.

Demented

i feel as if i've given up hope on life

so take my soul,take it with your knife

vowed to me like i'm your wife

the shadowy nights

the street lights

i can't put up more fights

all of it is just like an explosion

consumption with no quotation

feeding on me like temptation

feeding on the walls that i've built

throwing me a glance of guilt

life,dear one

take what you want

take me if you want

for i wont be living no more.

living hell

life is a piece of mess

but i know i've done the best

i've pass through all the tests

all i need now is a little bit of rest

cuz i'm tired to saying yes

i'm tired of fillling up the gas

still i know i'm better than the rest

people killing each other

his father,your mother and their daughter

gotta be strong,gotta be a fighter

that's what it takes to go higher

i aint joking,i aint giving out flyer

man,you cant drive with a flat tyre

things happen for a reason

things change with the season

everybody learn their lesson

you dont want to end up in the prison

you dont want to end up encrimson

you know you want to be a better person

sometimes we make stupid decisions

we aint got time nor precisions

we stopped at the junction near the stations

still we didnt get any inspirations

divisons,substractions,multiplications

fuck,i need some ventilations

doctor,give me some respirations

ought to know this aint simple

hands on the knife,hands on your scalpel

give it two,better tripple

dont fall down,dont you grumple

take a stand,hold your principle

do your thing,fuck all the people.

-22/5/2010-

7.24pm

in their shoes

wish you have never left

so many things i have to say left

to see you go in your sleep with the angels

wet my eyes,bring me down to my knees

i miss you so much that i sleep with your tees

oh god,give me strength please

it's not fair for you to go without saying goodbye

it's not fair for you to go solo and fly

every night i dream of you and i cry

i'm so hopeless,i dont know what to try

daddy,i wish you can come back

wish i could do a little playback

i'm still trying to accept the fact

that you're gone together with your pack

they are all here but i dont give a fuck

all i need now is a little bit of luck

woke up today without you by my side

someone whisper that you died

i couldnt stand it so i took a ride

searching,regaining my pride

life is changing now like the tide

please daddy,give me a guide

forever you'll always be mine

you get better with time like wine

daddy,give me a sign

that you're happy and in the line

to heaven and you shall be fine.

-20/5/2010-

5.57pm

anonymous

daddy i'm sorry you have to leave so soon

you didnt even get to see me fly to the moon

when you're gone no story is left

cuz everybody is working on their left

i dream of you every night and day

cuz i love you so much untill today

and now you're not here for my birthday

to even wish me a happy day

i'm trying to get my life right

i'm trying to find the light

i pray to god please make it light

cuz i dont know till when i can put up a fight

everybody said i will not make it

everybody said i will fail it

but look at me now,i'm in the flow

ridin' so high now when i used to ride so low

people look at me and what they can say is wow

i aint quiting this game,it's not about the fame

i'll keep the fire burning and the flame

to proove to all the niggas i aint lame

i'm not afraid to walk the storm and take my stand

i can fight you in any form and take over the land

i'm not afraid,look at me,i'm raising up my hand

i've been through shit holes,i've been to the poles

standing here now i've reach my goals

all you people can say what you wish

i dont give a fuck cuz i'm fucking rich

all i care is my dad smiling from heaven up

looking at me going the ladder up

and i promise you one thing,i wont give up.

-19/5/2010-

6.09pm

for the greatest mom in the world,ps: i love you

life is what you give to me

love is what you share with me

mummy,i know you're old now

but you always go with the flow

the word m means everything

without you,the world means nothing

so,happy mother's day mummy

and i love you like honey.

this is when giving up is not the option

life is like a business plan
know your enemy know your clan
this shit aint easy man
make it double up you know you can

people try bringing you down
you make him look like a clown
you still own your fucking crown
they will fail you should have known

try living in your own future
and see what's your adventure
dont be a failure like an amature
try to get the bigger picture

somehow everything will come to an end
you,him and your bestfriend.

-2.30pm-

when there is no way left,we pray

i saw that with my bold eyes

how the world collapses

and burn to blue ashes

waves crash the earth

tsunami hitting south

so they took their oath

to stop them both

that day,souls fly away

never thought they'd go away

and now,forever is there

sipping over everywhere

this is when eyes are close

heads looking up,the sky so close

hoping to change the weather

hoping to change for better.

-5.43pm-

For the world,for peace.End this.

why must husbands go for war?
why must the child die?
why must the world end?

when the sky turn to dust
then the world shed tears
when the pain conquer the sorrow
then the world shed fears

cries dim into silent
gun shots sound like drum beat
death is sent from heaven
sins will never be forgiven

enough dead on the road
what should blow is your head
so go on a high road
and relive what you once had.

-1.40 pm-

say your prayer,He's listening

my heart race
every sun rise
afraid to find empty next to me
to find nothing but me

living the life
with you no where near
is like heaven
without pleasures
like a story
with no ending

so promise me
that you'll stay
that you'll pray

we'll live together
for as long as there is life.

-10.15 pm-

High Road

searching through the night sky
hoping to find some peace
in one of the stars
as decision need to be made

listening to the blues of the wind
hoping to find some truth
as there is no repitition
of what life is now

heart is beating,racing with time
haters never die,they live with time

so tonight i shall sleep
and dream that dream
of you who will never exist.

-2.32 am-

serendipity :)

have you ever fall in love so hard
that even if you die you can't let him go

have you ever fall in love so hard
that when you fall from the sky high
and hit the ground
your heart smashed into discrete pieces

have you ever fall in love so hard
that you can still feel his warmth
taste his lips and hear him singing
wallahi he's miles away

i have
and it is blissfull.

-2/3/2010-

buat insan-insan patah hati

kadang diri mengamuk
hati mengilai
cedera parah barangkali
atau mungkin sudah gila

jangan ditanya
jangan disoal

milik hati
tentang hati
bukan kerja kita

senyapkan saja
jawapan nanti kau jumpa
mungkin yang terbaik.


11/01/2010 ; 10.28 pm

yesterday was nothing

when silence creeps
look up the sky
enchanted as you are
fixing your broken smile
singing you the blues

forget
let it pass
let it pass

everything will be fine
i'm here now
kiss me now

just forget.

be the stars,for we will be together

wacthing the stars
without thou
souless it seems
shall i have no words
then pray

burst you into
tiny stars
when you lie
when you die

so that them
will ask for nothing
but tonight
for eternity

and stop the worship
of the great sun.

pernah kau rasa kau bukan kau

lewat semalam
diri aku hilang
entah ke mana
ke langit barangkali

aku tinggal kosong
pulang ya
aku mahu aku

minta pada bumi
jangan ratah lagi.

kisah bintang atau aku?

malam tadi
aku dongak ke langit
aku jumpa bintang sunyi
yang lain mati menyepi

kasihan bintang sunyi
kasihan bintang sunyi

bulan pun tak sudi

yang tinggal bintang sunyi
yang tinggal bintang sunyi.

all that you know is nothing

your blood singing in my heart
your breath oxygenated my heart
your smile excersied my little weak heart

all that you know
except one thing

you leaving,
punch a dark-black hole in it.

catatan pendek

hey kau,
sini lah

kau pekak kah?
kau buta kah?



ah! aku rupanya
bodoh.

kata dia,bonda benci.mari aku puisikan biar suka

bonda di sana benci aku
mahu apa lagi
harus apa lagi

aku minta
halalkan saja

maaf ya bonda
anak sundal ini
memanggil suka.

bila semua yang ada cuma mati,dengar suara aku

tuhan,
pinjam aku naga sakti
buat perang kejam dunia
buat selamat anak kecil

di sana tu
di tanah jauh
kasihan

boleh ya,
pinjam aku naga sakti
biar tuli bunyi segala
aku bingit
sudah.

Kalaulah

if only i can hear it again
i would synchronize mine to yours

if only i can smell it again
i would remember the fragrance

if only i can hold it again
i would not let go

if only i can kiss it again
i would embrace the taste

it's you

just if

boleh?

Every Single Night

while i am looking through this telescope,

this heart is hoping to find you there

in the world opposite to mine.

malam itu,malaikat datang jemput aku.katanya kau sudah pergi.

aku memandang haram
di tempat gelap ini

tangannya yang kau pimpin
bibirnya yang kau cium
tubuhya yang kau rangkul

jadi bakarlah,
ayuh bakar aku
biar terbang jadi debu.

Rasa Yang Sementara

kalaulah aku punya sayap
kalaulah angin bawa terbang
ingin benar aku jadi Si Helang
di atas sana tu
di langit milik Dia

terbang bebas
suka,suka
rempuh awan

cuma aku harap
bila aku leka
mereka tarik aku
simpan kemas.

Khusus Buat Orang Asing

hey orang asing
kenapa berkata sundal
bernyanyi sampah

kau itu,orang asing
asing
faham?

tak perlu memuntahkan
benci kau ke mari
tak layak bagiku

simpan saja
bahasa keras kau itu
jangan harap
aku benar sampai hati.

Satu Harapan Pada Mungkin

mungkin satu hari nanti
kau terhenti berlari
kau toleh mencari aku
dalam serabut hidup
kau jerit cinta
mencari-cari
melihat-lihat
apa yang kau rindu

mungkin

aku tunggu
sampai mati.

Bila Hati Bertanya

marah,sepi,sedih
semua ikut bergaul
mencarik-carik hati
yang nadinya kian hilang

perlukah,mestikah
kau sejat semuanya
tinggalkan aku ini
memori dan imaginasi

aku itu butuh semuanya
aku itu sayang mereka
apa aku tak layak
milik mereka yang indah.



buat dia yang hilang sepi
buat bintang yang aku rindu
buat teman baik yang aku sayang

Tarian Cinta

darah yang mengalir ini
untuk kau
degup jantung ini
untuk kau

tercipta aku
cuma buat kau
matahari

aku dan kau itu
jodoh
sama seperti
sungai nil dan mesir

ayuh menari
dengan cinta
di pentas awan
persembahan kita
buat semua.

Teman

berpanas perit

bernyanyi sumbang

berhujan basah

beronok-ronok

itu la korang :)

Buat Matahariku

usahlah bersedih
matahariku
kita berpisah
tak kan lama

aku tunggu kau
di syurga sini
mungkin hayat ini
tak dijanjikan pada kita
tapi ku pasti
hayat depan untuk kita

lepaskan tangan
huraikan pelukan
biar aku pergi

tapi ingat
di atas sini
aku lihat kau
perhati
setiap apa kau.

Puisi Cinta

bila kau lari
aku statik
bila kau kata
hati kau dah beku
aku hangatkan

bila kau kata
cinta dah terbang
aku kata tak
bila kau pergi
aku tunggu

kerna hati
masih inginkan kau
masih cinta kau

sedarlah kau matahari
lihat bawah
pandang sini
lihat aku

telah ku pesan
pada angin
puisi cinta ini
nukilan hati
buat kau

jadikan dodoian
bila bulan tiba
biar kau ingat
aku masih di sini
pasti.

Malaikat Pria

aku malaikatmu
menyayangi
mencintai
melindungi
walau terkadang
disakiti
diremuk
puas

kasihani aku kekasih
tasek kekontangan
dihirup segala ada
tanpa dihujani
ketandusan

lihat awan
minitiskan anak-anak hujan
buat aku
buat sedih ini
yang kau wujudkan

aku itu penat
wahai anak adam
membiar segalalaku kau
menggenggam semua
janji kau
mengangkut setiap
rajuk kau

sedarlah kau
sang pria
sayang aku
sebelum aku
tersejat
hilang.

Senyap Segala

hati kelam

tiada maya

cakerawala

bersembunyi

bumi aku

kosong

cahaya itu mana

mana cahaya itu

kau itu mana

apa tak singgah?

menjadi gelap

semuanya

mati terasa

hanya ku lihat

jiwa bermuka kata

disisip emosi

sekadar cukup

temani aku.

Puisi Picis Buat Alam

alam menyepi
tak berbahasa
padaku
menjadi aku
kamus kosong
tak punya kata

hai alam,apa laku kau?
sudah lelah
meminjam kata-kata
padaku?

diam ingar kau
statik bibirku
hanya kata picis
dapat ku cari
buat sempurnakan
puisi ini.

Mari Benci Peanut

Hey kau!
kenapa mendongak
ke langit
kalau diri tak
tinggi mana

kau fikir kau apa?
kau fikir kau siapa?

merebak benci,
marah
melihat langkah
sumbang kau itu

sudahlah,usah kau
menabur lagak
di tanah sini
yang bukan
milik kau

pergi,
terbang,
hilangkan jejakmu
padam semua

pergi,
terbang,
terbanglah
bersama "scholarsip"
kau itu.

Bisikan Pada Bidadari

perlu ke zahirkan sedih

baru kau sedar

perlu ke lihatkan pilu

baru kau kasihan

perlu ke semua itu?

aku tahu aku tak sempurna

seperti rama-rama kau

tapi,aku juga insan

meski kerdil

punya hati

meski pekak

bisa dengar

meski buta

boleh lihat

aku canggung

dengan tingkahmu

wahai bidadari

dengarlah bisikan

orang bisu ini

aku mahu secebis kasihpunya kau.

Hari Indah

hari ini indah
aku duduk situ
bersama rama-rama
angin turut menari
menggigal bersama

aku dengar bahasamu angin
hati tersenyum
mendengar melodi
yang kau dendangkan

diri terapung
bahagia
detik itu

terima kasih tuhan
kau kirimkan angin
merawat hati.

Sepi

kosong
hati seperti
ingin berkata sesuatu
tak terluah

jiwa melankolik
memikirkan matahari

sunyi
sepi
sendiri

dapat ku rasa
terhenti semua
seakan melayan sepiku

awan bersembunyi
aku sendiri lagi.

Surat Buat Bintang

bintang,
hati menangis
merintih
bila kau lari
ke bulan

aku sedih bintang!

bibir pandai mengukir senyum
sedang hati inginkan yang lain

aku benci kau bulan
kau rampas milikku
kau ragut nyawaku bulan
kau sedar tak?

tak ku rela kau pergi bintang
kau berlari pantas
sedang aku
tak dihiraukan
dipulaukan

pandang sini bintang
lihat aku
sayang aku
teman aku

apa kata kau?
apa kau biarkan aku?

Manusia Bodoh

inginku lepas beban di hati
biar penghuni dunia tahu
aku benci kau matahari
aku benci kau

hati ini tak kau jaga
kau pijak
kau campak
kau bunuh

tapi,
bisa lagi kau senyum
ketawa
bercanda

kau memang manusia
tak punya hati

aku benci kau matahari
aku benci kau

inginku campak hati
ke tengah laut
mengapa disayangnya kau?
sedang aku menanggung semua

sudahlah
hentikan lagakmu
tinggalkan sini.

Kisah Tentang Hati

hati terbiasa ada dirimu
saat kau pergi
berantakkan hati akhirnya
awan menangis menemani hati

tapi hati
memberontak
tegar
masih inginkan kau

kerna hati
belum puas
kerna hati
masih pilu

jangan kau tanya

bagi hati,
kau cintanya.